nth to do....so ....posting again.....just feel very unhappy with these bad luck things....== n oh ya, since tristan WANTS me n oscar to be RESERVES, we will not be going already, we said already: be reserves? why not just dont go? nvm, pretty fed up these few days....now tristan's make me even more fed up....nvm, just calm down n nth will happen.....i hope.....what is happening....im confused....why is these things happening.....i want to BE "happy", but these things are preventing me, is it that the heavens just want me to be the same? it is just too coincidental.....sth's wrong, its already night time n the clouds are still so obvious....its about to rain.....lighting flash, thunder strikes.....the lighting is striking me in another way......n the thunder is preventing me to do n hear things......